Victoria Mary Clarke still feels her late husband Shane MacGowan's presence and turns to him for guidance.
The writer, who was married to the legendary Pogues singer, talks to him regularly and can feel him all around her.
Shane died from pneumonia last November, leaving behind an incredible legacy for music and song-writing worldwide.
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Nearly a year on from his sad death, Victoria has now opened up about life without her husband and how she communicates with him.
The first time she felt his presence was at the crematorium after his funeral.
Victoria said: "I was sitting with Johnny Depp and we could both feel Shane beaming down us being like, 'Hey, I'm having a great time, I'm free, I'm now the rain, the trees, everything'. It was like he was communicating his joy, and we could feel that physically.
"I talk to him regularly, I quite often write to him and he writes back, like he channels himself. When I'm doing it, I feel these giddy, blissful waves of joy moving through me. "
When asked what she talks about to Shane, Victoria told Brendan O'Connor on RTE Radio 1: "I talk to him about missing him, and what's going on, I ask him questions, I ask him to help with various situations. I ask him to tell me what he wants me to say.
"When you slow down your breath a lot, there's almost a gap between your thoughts and breath, and in there that's where you really feel what you might want to call universe, God, whatever you want to call it. It's a sacred space you go to and Shane is in there [for me]."
Victoria is still grieving the loss of her husband, but has also been able to feel pockets of joy the past year. She explained that when your heart is broken, it's not just sadness that gets in, but happy emotions too.
She told Brendan : "It's still very devastating, very emotional, very raw and there's still a huge void. But at the same time there are amazing amounts of joy.
"Everyone has an idea [about grief], 'I'll be miserable and depressed forever,' but you're not. You're really, really miserable, maybe even more than you thought was possible, at times. But then at other times you're dancing.
It's like your mind is like, 'Yeah but, yeah but, yeah but, it's going to be sh*t, it's going to be sh*t, it's going to be sh*t but then something happens that just uplifts you again and it's like, 'Wow this is new territory'."
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