I was able to let go to the degree that I’d call my family and chat jovially with them and everything. I noticed it after—now I feel like I was releasing something that had been with me, and I don’t really know how to describe it other than this heaviness.
That’s healthy.
I try to maintain my sanity. I’m on Instagram, which is already too much. I try to protect myself from all that, just because I don’t feel the need to engage with it. It’s not that interesting to me.
Were you disappointed that you didn’t get a second season?
I mean, I would’ve loved to have worked with Sam again. And I loved the character profoundly. She is the woman that I wanted to be when I was five. I was the little girl who was wearing my mom’s heels—she is the femme fatale fantasy of who I wanted to be when I was a kid. So I would’ve loved to explore that character further. But I know that we’ll do something again together one day, and I’m excited for that day. Everything happens for a reason.
Lily-Rose Depp in The Idol.
You mentioned that you didn’t expect to get the Nosferatu part. Have you struggled with insecurity in this business?
Absolutely. Somebody asked me the other day what was the hardest part of the role, and I said, “Getting over the imposter syndrome of, like, ‘Why am I here and why do these people think that I can do this?’” Getting to a place where I felt confident enough within myself to be like, “I can do this and I am here for a reason,” I definitely have struggled with that. Humility is incredibly important, especially in this business. In a way, I always want to feel like I’m just starting out and like I still have so much to learn—which is how I do feel.
I feel like people have been ready to see me fail, in a way, since I was a kid. That has made me only want to work harder and prove people wrong. Not in a vindictive way at all, but just in a sense of, like, fuel to my fire. I do want to prove that I’m a hard worker and I’m not here for anything else but to work hard. But Rob was one of my bucket list directors. I didn’t think I would get to work with him so soon, so early in my career.
And it’s such an amazing part.
And I’m surrounded by all these amazing actors who I’ve always looked up to. I definitely was walking in being like, “Oh my God, I am so out of my depth.” But you just have to be like, “You know what? I may feel this way, but I have to go to work tomorrow.”
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