Louise Thompson says she’ll ‘never have the perfect family’ as she discusses battle with secondary infertility

LOUISE Thompson has told of her heartbreak about never being able to have the "perfect family" following her traumatic health battle.

The former Made in Chelsea star has secondary infertility - and won't be able to carry a child again.

Despite dreams of having four children, the condition means the inability to conceive or carry a baby to term after previously giving birth.

Louise wrote in You Magazine: "As the third year approached, I could feel something bigger than a party looming over me: the fact that I will never have the 'perfect family' I always thought I would.

"Nothing emphasises the passing of time like your child’s birthday, and I can't deny that when I look around at other friends popping out countless children, it hits home that this is not a reality for us.

"I always imagined I'd have four children. I loved the idea of a big family with lots of noise and different personalities.

"People said it would be hard work, but I liked the idea of each sibling bringing up the one behind them. I wanted to be like the Von Trapps. This will never be my life.

"I used to believe that if you work hard enough you can achieve anything, but that's not true: I will never be able to go back and fix what happened to me.

"There will always be a sadness that I won't experience childbirth again. That sadness is a part of who I am now and I need to learn how to take it forward into the rest of my life."

Sadly, Louise ended up in hospital after writing her thoughts about her health ordeal.

She was rushed in for emergency surgery 11 months after her stoma bag operation - leaving her fiance Ryan Libbey "broken".

The 34-year-old went into septic shock post-surgery

Ryan said: "I can't believe we're back in this situation.

"My heart beat is skipping around all over the place which is an indication of how heavy and raw it all feels.

"It's very unexpected and a difficult pill to swallow."