Victoria Mary Clarke, the widow of Pogues legend Shane MacGowan, shared a heart-wrenching post on the couple’s wedding anniversary, one year after he passed away.
Victoria said she misses the singer "desperately, more than I even thought possible" and admitted she’s struggling to get out of bed as she’s “not feeling like there’s anything to live for”.
MacGowan died last November, but the couple’s wedding anniversary would’ve been on November 26.
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Victoria wrote: “Today is our wedding anniversary and it is f***ing hard. I am just crying in bed and not feeling like there’s anything to live for.
“I miss him desperately, more than I even thought possible".
Victoria conceded that these feelings of despair are temporary and normal when grieving the loss of a loved one.
“Even though I know that these emotions are really only passing through and there will be times when I can feel the joy again and the appreciation for everything that we shared. And even though I know that Shane is happy in another dimension with his beautiful mother Therese.
"It’s a weird thing to know that you are human and that it f***ing hurts to be human but at the same moment that you are hurting you are also a soul and you are also eternal and powerful and full of love and light.
“Sometimes you can feel very isolated and alone and cut off from the love. The only way back to love, is through love. So if you are hurting, find something nice to say to yourself, find a way to love yourself and support yourself and keep asking the angels for help to heal the pain in your heart and to lift the heaviness and let the light in".
Victoria's post with undoubtedly resonate with many others who are struggling to cope, and she offered advice to those who are feeling lost.
“Never blame yourself or make yourself wrong for feeling sad. You are a beautiful soul and you are also a fragile and sensitive human and you are both at the exact same moment. Be whatever you need to be in the moment and allow some space to hear the messages from your soul and your guides. You are so loved even if you think you are alone and ESPECIALLY if you think you are alone!
“Thank you so much for being in my life, my beautiful @shanemacgowanofficial I will love you forever and ever”.
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