Woman Grieving Mom's Death Logs Into Her Amazon—Can't Believe What She Sees

A young woman grieving the loss of her mother found heartwarming memories in an unexpected place: her Amazon account.

Emily Anne Small, a student from Ireland, lost her mother, Alison, in April and is seeking out traces of her wherever she can. Explaining to Newsweek that both she and her sister Maria are autistic, she said their mother "understood us better than anyone."

"Our childhood was filled with teddy bear birthday parties and egg hunts from the Easter bunny," Small said. "She was the sort of person who always asked how someone else was doing before they had a chance to ask how she was, no matter what she was going through."

In November, Small shared a video on her TikTok account @emilyannesmall revealing how she was keeping close to her mother by logging into her Amazon account and recalling memories of each gift or experience Alison had bought.

Emily Anne Small lost her mother, Alison, in April. When she went through her email, she found lots of childhood memories. TikTok @emilyannesmall

The video, viewed nearly 80,000 times, showed Small on a laptop, searching through her mother's purchases from oldest to newest. She "found Santa Claus," showing an order in Christmas 2010 for toys, books and CDs for herself and her sister.

And on Alison's Ticketmaster account, Small found her "childhood memories"—tickets for The X Factor tour, Disney On Ice and Christmas concerts. Small ended the video with an old photograph of her and her mom and wrote: "Things like this help keep my childhood alive."

Small explained to Newsweek: "When she died earlier this year, I struggled to remember details of our childhood memories because she was no longer here to discuss them with.

"I began to look everywhere I could, on her phone, on her email and in old texts, for things I could use to keep her memory alive and bring back my own memories."

She explained Alison's email address is older than both her and her sister, so "I could find a trail of our childhood by searching words on email and adjusting the settings from oldest to newest."

The video hugely moved TikTok users. One wrote it was "so sweet" it "made me cry."

Small, pictured on the left with her mother, found tickets to concerts and events. She also found orders of toys from Christmases past. TikTok @emilyannesmall

"I love this so much. Thank you for this," another wrote, while a commenter confessed that the video was "making me cry."

And as one put it: "I love this, sending you love too."

Small told Newsweek: "When I discover a new memory, it makes me feel more connected to my mum and helps me focus on the fun we did get to have.

"Maria and I like to remember and talk about our mum a lot; it's the way we cope with our grief."

Anyone going through the grieving process can do a number of things to help get them through it. Mental Health America recommends seeking out caring people, expressing your feelings, and trying to exercise patience, as accepting a major loss can take a long time.